Thinking

There is so much going on in my life and every time I want a shoulder to cry on or someone to talk to and get good advice from I miss my mother more. It doesn't get easier.

Thanksgiving is past and while there is so much I give thanks for I could not help missing my mum to the point of physical pain. Next is Christmas, Catelin's First. I look at her, she looks so much like my mother, and I just wish she had the chance to know her Nana.

My cousin Bobby was just given bad news. Liver cancer and a timeframe. I'm taking it hard. I don't want to loose anyone else from my family but I know when it's his time my mom will be one of the people there to show him the way. In that aspect I'm jealous.