My mother's Candle

My mother was a very active member of her church (Trinity Episcopal, Randolph) and they dedicated a candle in her name two weeks ago. Unfortunately I wasn't able to go. Lloyd had been very sick with a stomach virus and that morning I had some symptoms. So, because the baby and Nana would have been there I had to stay home. I was heart broken but they tell me it was a beautiful service. The picture they had of her next to the candle is probably one of the best pictures I've ever seen of her. It's a happy picture.

I miss her more every single day. It hasn't gotten a bit easier and although I'm told by everyone it will I simply don't believe it. I'll get better at bearing the burden of her loss but it will never be easier.

Nana is, of course, still having a hard time. Each of us are I guess. Today is Bryan's 31st birthday and although we haven't talked about it today I know it's hard for him to not here my mother sing an out of tune Happy Birthday song to him. Although when I sang to him he said, sarcastically (but lovingly) "I'm not sure who has a "better" voice, you or Angela..."

Well, tonight we meet at the Cheesecake Factory to celebrate him and then he and Kevin (our cousin) head down to the new MGM hotel at Foxwoods to gamble and WIN BIG.

Love you all,
me