Back to work

And thank God it's only for two days. I'm not ready. I am still breaking down into tears on a regular basis. I keep being hit with things that I never thought of, all the little ways my mother touched my life. And every time I try to go back to the "normal" things I see yet another 50 ways that my mother's passing has left holes in my life.

I just want my mother and I can't have her and going back to my normal day to day processes just doesn't feel right. I know I have to but it's too soon.