there won't be much today. I'm having a hard time.
I know I have a lot of people around me who love me but I feel so absolutely alone that I'm finding that hard to remember.
I just need some time to deal with this, to figure out how I can move on with my life without my mother or her advice or just the comfort of her being there when I'm afraid.
I also feel as if I'm loosing my other parent, Nana. She's going to be living with Auntie now (and soon) and I've never not been able to drop by and see her any time I want before. She's always been within a 20 min ride and the idea that she will now be over an hour away from me is devastating to me too. It's what has to be done, it's the best decision but I feel as if I'm loosing everyone I've loved and depended on in the last 25 years.
IT ALL SUCKS.
The Squishy
My mother loved her kids but she worshipped Morgan.
Mom and Morgan
I think this is my favorite, recent picture of my mother. This was on Thanksgiving. I think it's an image that will stick in my head, my mother watching over Morgan as she sleeps. <3
My Mumma and her's
My grandmother is the most important person in all of our lives but most especially in my mother's life.
Mom, Bryan and Angela
My mother was so excited about the shower and watching her face as she carried the gifts over to Bryan and Angela to open was part of what I enjoyed. She was so excited to touch every thing that would be a part of the baby's life!
Mom, Bry and Morgan
This was in the hospital the day after Morgan was born. I know this was one of my mother's happiest moments.
Me and Mumma
The fact that I'm posting a picture of myself should say something. My mother loved this picture of the two of us, I of course think I look terrible but here it is! >.>
Mom and Shirley
My mother and her best friend. I know she thanked God every day for Shirley and the kids. I always imagined them going off into the sun set like an older Thelma and Louise...only you'd hear them gabbing from a mile (or 10) away!!
My mommy about to be a Nana!
This was from Angela's baby shower. One of the girls from work gave her this pillow. She was so happy about being a Nana!!!
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